Rydog's 21st Party Part I

I am back from my weekend away for Rydog's 21st birthday party. I had a fabulous time and the night was eventful, fun and very exciting. It was definitely one of the most enjoyable nights that I have had in a long time. I cannot believe how fast the night went and I feel a sense of sadness and disappointment that it is over. I think this is always the case when looking forward to, preparing and planning an event for many months in advance. It's a shame that it was just one night because I wanted it to last for so much longer. As I said last week I also love dressing up for formal events. I have been lucky to attend two in the last couple of weeks but I know there will be a long time until the next one.

The theme of the party was casino so all the decorations incorporated poker chips, dice, cards, red, black and feathers and I thought they were all very effective. Casino equipment was hired for the night so guests could play roulette and black jack. I'm not really sure how the theme was chosen but I think it worked well and made the night more fun.









Rydog's mum made my dress for the party and I am extremely pleased with the way it turned out because it was everything that I had hoped for. We saw a stunning dress while out shopping one day but since it cost $800 she decided to make a version of it for me instead. I love the sparkly top section which I think makes the dress more of a statement and adds glam which fitted in with the theme of the night. The skirt part is tiered with different layers which is hard to see from the pictures and I love the sash which joins the two parts together. As a last minute detail I decided to add the flower that came with my pearl necklace which I received a few weeks ago. I love all the customisations and how it is unique so no one else will ever have exactly the same dress as me. The whole experience was fun and I wish I knew more about sewing so I could make something myself one day. I have wanted to learn how to sew for a long time but I need to become more proactive and actually make it happen. I also wore my sportsgirl shoes that were posted here.






 


 



So my friends...I have had a situation present in my personal life for a long time now and I am unsure on how to adequately deal with it so any advice would be much appreciated. I know this is difficult to explain and I cannot go into full details here but basically the closest people to me in my life ie. those that are important to me, I care about deeply and have significant impacts on my daily life are extremely different people and opposite in almost every possible way imaginable. These different groups of people who are all extremely important to me have opposing views about the important things in life and the paths that are right and desirerable for me. I feel as though I often have one set of people telling me to make one decision and another set advising me to take the opposite path. In most areas it is one of these groups of people that I agree with as opposed to the other and I feel as though there are some significant life decisions that I will make this year and in the next couple of years that will hurt the other group of people in my life. I know that the obvious answer to my situation would be to be true to myself but I'm not sure if its that simple. I feel that this doesn't work when the people that I could potentially hurt or disapoint believe I made my decision based on the unnecessary influence of the other group of people in my life. It doesn't work when one group of people does not think that I am making my decisions based on my own opinion or where the decision is so fundamentally against the life direction and principles that I have been taught. I don't know what to do when I wish to pursue a course of action that one group of people believe was not an independent choice (even thought it actually was) but rather a complete adaption of the other group's lifestyle and opinion. I feel so torn and I dislike that it is often the same group of people that I disapoint when I make a decision and that there is no way that I can chose my life path and satisfy everyone that is close to me. This quote which I found on the Internet appears to be interesting to me:

"The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another." James Matthew Barrie

I understand that there may have been a life direction and set of values and beliefs that I was brought up to to hold and demonstrate but in many ways that does not appear to be the life that I am leading now. I am personally happier with the way things are now rather than the way they used to be I know that appears hurtful to some of the people around me. There is a decision in my personal life that I will be making in the very near future that one important group of people in my life will believe is wrong and the other groups will believe is right. I don't know how to minimise the hurt to those people. I want to make the decision based on what I believe is right because it is my life but its not that simple when some people in my life refuse to accept that it actually was an independent life choice that I made myself since it deviates so substaintially from the beliefs that they personally expound and the beliefs which I used to hold myself but do no longer.

I hope that made some sense. I guess it is about life choices, the difficulty in satisfying all groups of people in life with the decisions that I make and the extreme opposite beliefs that the people closest to me actually hold. I don't know what to do alot of the time or how to demonstrate who I am and the person that I have become.

Wow! That was a long post. Thanks to everyone who stayed with me.