Party

Hello everyone, how was your weekend? I have had an extremely busy and eventful weekend. It was so tiring that, instead of completing my university work, I had to spend most of yesterday catching up on sleep, thinking and resting. I will hopefully catch up on my work but I just think that these sorts of days are necessary sometimes. I attended a few social events but the main one was an 80th birthday party. It really was a big event at a function venue and I very much enjoyed the chance to dress up in my Jools Couture dress for the first time. I received some compliments about my dress and one woman told me that it was the type of dress that she used to wear when she was young many years ago. I had planned to take some proper outfit pictures before this event but it was raining all day so there was absolutely no chance to do so but I have many pictures which were taken there. In case anyone was wondering there was a particular reason why Rydog was wearing such a colourful and out there shirt.



It feels like a very long time since I have written about my personal life and, even though my recent posts and pictures display positivity, I still have some issues. This year, without a doubt, has been the hardest year of my whole life. I have been attempting to get through university with nerves, anxiety and an extreme lack of motivation for the whole year with a degree that I really have no interest in. It is exhausting to try and push myself through everything. Also, there has been another almost year long circumstance that I have not yet shared on my blog. I may at a later time but not right now. Lets just say that it has challenged my values and beliefs and who I am as a person. It has made me feel that I no longer play the role in certain people's lives as I once did through no fault of my own and I am finding it almost impossible to accept certain things beyond my control. I know this is difficult to understand right now but it will make more sense later. This issue is so stressful and distracting for me at the moment and I wish things could go back to the way they were. I think that at the same time I am learning more about myself. Its another three and a half weeks until the end of the university semester and I am starting to worry about everything I need to complete. I hope that I can somehow get through the next few weeks because then I will be able to sort out my life and decide which direction I want to take. I know that once thats out of the way for the year I will feel better because I have events to look forward to. Summer in Australia is such a happy and amazing time of the year and Rydog is taking me away for the weekend once I finish exams. I'm also looking forward to spending more time on my blog.