Christmas

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

I had an enjoyable Christmas day. Rydog and I spent the daytime with my parents and the evening and night time with his family. They were two very different Christmas meals since there were just five people for lunch and about twenty five at dinner time. I received so many beautiful and generous gifts from both parts of my family which I will post later. It appears as though my family all liked the gifts I bought them which makes me happy. Ever since Christmas I have been relaxing, watching movies and attended a family function yesterday. I saw the King's Speech the other day. It was much better than I expected it to be. Has anyone seen it and what did you think? I can't believe how fast this Christmas has gone. I know we all say that every year but this time has felt especially fast and it really is unbelievable. At least I have New Years Eve to look forward to. Rydog and I are going away for the long weekend and I am very much looking forward to it.





















How did you spend Christmas day? What are your plans for New Years Eve?

Outfit

Today I finally had the chance to take some outfit pictures. I really want to increase the amount of outfit posts because I have bought so many new clothes recently. This is one of the new dresses that I found on my trip to Melbourne and I have been wearing it so much recently. My new shoes are one of the most practical purchases I have made in a long time because they go well with all of my outfits especially light coloured summer dresses and situations where my dress is very bright.















Here I am with Juliette. Her eyes are so bright because of the flash but she still looks very cute. I love her. Merry Christmas for tomorrow everyone.

Christmas presents- Alannah

I received my first two Christmas presents last Saturday. They are a beautiful Alannah Hill bag and stunning Alannah Hill dress from Rydog's parents. Anyone that knows me well would be aware that I adore this label and it is my favourite so these are the most perfect gifts I could receive. I feel so happy about having these generous gifts.











I can't wait to wear them to my work Christmas party tomorrow night.

Melbourne Part 3

Today I thought I would share the last of the pictures from my Melbourne trip. To read about the trip see my previous post here.

Intercontinental Melbourne- The Rialto


St Paul's Cathedral


Southbank


Victorian Parliament House


Fitzroy Gardens


St Patricks's Cathedral


Victorian Parliament House


Yarra River


Yarra River


(near) Victorian Parliament House


Fitzroy Gardens


City Circle Tram


St Paul's Cathedral


Myer Bourke Street Mall


Victorian Parliament House


(view from) Federation Wharf


St Patrick's Cathedral


Federarion Wharf


Yarra River


St Patrick's Cathedral


I recently received my university results for the semester and I am so incredibly pleased. I have exceeded any expectations I had of myself. I received a credit and two distinctions. The distinctions were for extremely hard subjects that I wasn't even sure that I would pass. One of my results is withheld because of the university strike but I have enough credit points for my commerce degree regardless. Even though I have said before that I have completed my commerce degree, it is now official.

Juliette

Juliette is my new kitten! Rydog bought her for me as a Christmas present and since she was available earlier than expected I was able to collect her last Saturday. She is a ragdoll, is so beautiful and makes me happy. I am a cat lover and as I have mentioned several times before my last cat Puss, who I had for thirteen years, was a best friend to me. I always knew that I could never find another cat like her and I didn't want to rush and get another cat too soon because I didn't want to replace her. I feel now that the time is right to have another cat and she will be unique rather than a replacement of Puss. I have so greatly missed having a cat.











Its so hard to take pictures of Juliette because she is very playful and energetic. She loves to play with string. There will be more coming.

Life Ramblings

Since I have been on university holidays with an extensive amount of free time I have found myself deeply thinking about and analysing my life. This often happens when I am in this position and my mind addresses a myriad of past, present and future events. It brings back an array of memories that are both good and bad and many different feelings. I think it might not be the best for my state of mind when I have had such a difficult year and when I am trying to achieve acceptance in my life because it brings out a lot of feelings that I generally push towards the side when I am in an academic semester. But overall I am pleased to have this time because it allows me to let out thoughts and feelings and that is partially what I need.

For me, my final year of high school was one of the most significant years of my life and a time that I remember with extreme clarity. It was a year of mixed emotions and widespread changes in my personal and academic life. It was one of the hardest years of my life as I pushed myself to achieve high results and gain entry to my law and commerce degree but also one of the most rewarding when I consider my achievements for that year. This year my sister finished high school so this year many thoughts and feelings of my experience in that position have returned to me. In many ways I felt as though I was that same high school girl that I was back in 2007.

Now, three years since my high school graduation, I regularly think about what I have achieved and whether or not my life has been worthwhile in the time I have spent out of school. Prior to finishing my commerce degree a couple of weeks ago I wasn't sure if I liked that answers to those questions so this degree has had a huge impact of my sense of achievement and fulfilment. I have generally felt that I haven't lived up to my potential and the expectations of how I used to be perceived and my life has taken a different direction to the expected in some ways. In many ways I miss who I used to be. Here is what I miss:

My beautiful long hair


Positivity and life direction


First ever care free summer


The innocence and bliss of my first relationship


My best friend


Happiness, peace, a relaxed state of mind


Nana


Academic Excellence


Respect and admiration everywhere I went


Time to decide


I have changed a lot in those past three years and although some things are better for me now, I overall miss what I no longer have. These days I am stressed out, anxious, nervous and scared of so many things in life. I have lost life direction and motivation to achieve my goals and my fears prevent me from putting myself out there. I no longer have positivity, happiness or inner peace and there is always something on my mind. I am too dependent on other people's opinions for my self worth. It feels like I have lost respect and admiration since I have exposed my weaknesses to the people in my life who I want to like me the most. I feel replaced and like I no longer fulfil the role in certain people's lives that I used to. I'm always told that I over analyse situations and am too sensitive. I'm holding myself back and it needs to change...

The purpose of this post was not to feel sad and depressed about my life. I hope that it can be used as a reflection and a source of improvement. I always have difficulty forming goals and dreams and I'm never sure how to actually change my situation. I think this could be a starting point for who I want to be.

I hope the diversion from fashion related posts is fine. I really needed to explain my feelings.