I have always been obsessed with shoes but in the past few weeks I have become even more obsessed with shoes than ever before. I have been selecting outfits based on the shoes that I desire to wear and my expenditure on shoes has substantially increased, evidenced by purchases such as this. I bought these shoes in the 50% sale at Wittner recently. They are very versatile and will be perfect to wear with my dresses that have light coloured backgrounds such as this beautiful Alannah Hill dress that I received for Christmas last year. They also go well with my recent Modcloth purchases that were posted here. I also love the fact that these shoes are patent and the overall girly nature.
This week I've had a few different issues on my mind which I would like to write about briefly. Since my blog has taken on a more personal dimension over the last year in addition to the fashion aspect, I find it extremely helpful to document how I have been feeling here. I love to have my own space where I can explain my views and feelings because one of my greatest frustrations in life is that I rarely have the chance to do so. My main issue this week is uncertainty. While I have made progress this year in defining personal boundaries, understanding and appreciating who I am and trying to minimise nerves and anxiety, I'm not so sure if I am in as favourable position as I thought I was. I still feel nervous most of the time, I am still unable to make the right decisions, I still waste opportunities, I still feel generally unappreciated, I still wish I had more confidence and I am still dissatisfied with many circumstances in my life. I believe that people rarely listen to me or truly like me for who I am. I have been listening to "Change" by Taylor Swift lately the lyrics "somebody else gets what you wanted again, you know it's all the same, another time and place , repeating history and you're getting sick of it,"and "it's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair" basically describe how I feel at the moment. Behind all of the dressing up, the pretty clothes and makeup which makes me so happy on a daily basis, I'm not who I want to be. I hope this uncertain feeling is temporary and that I can find the strength to continue to implement positive changes in my life somehow.